california bears.

We made a change in our group project; we're going to use bears instead. By the way, I bet you're wondering what this project is all about! The class I'm doing this for is a software engineering course. The title sounds a lot scarier than it really is. As a group, we were given a problem, and we have to work together to create a project that addresses these issues.

Um...yeah, so while we were designing an interface for our project (which is an airpline website, if you wanted to know), I put some of my space cadets on the draft, just to fill up the white space. My professor really liked it. He's soooooo funny. So, we decided to go with it because he said it might be a good marketing scheme.

However, I decided I wanted to use bears instead, California bears that is because the airline is based in California and the flights are only in California.

Here are some of the bears in our project:

space cadets III.

This is a messy take of the different sizes, colors, and positionings of cadets I might use.

space cadets II.

Here is a revised version of my "space cadets" painting. I'm actually going to implement it in one of my projects for school (with the approval and ENCOURAGEMENT of one of my professors). I have less than two weeks to go (two midterms, three projects/programs, and three finals!!!) Then, I get one lovely week of freedom before the fall semester begins. I'm looking forward to the break!!!

pebble magnets II.

Someone used my design for her magnets, and that someone had a little other someone do some as well. You need to check it out because it's sooooooooooooooo cute! It's in one of her blogs:

Way Cute Mushroommeadow Magnets

deep misery.

If you want to read something cheery or uplifting, I suggest you stop reading here and move on to another blog...

As most of you know, I'm going back to school. Having already done five years, I am aiming for ten. :( I am going back for a Master's in Computer Science. I am not a genius. I am not brilliant. I am actually very frightened, uncertain, and confused. I do not profess to know much about computers, and as I partake in the dreadfulness and difficulty of each class, I want to just die. So, you must be wondering, why do I persist? Why do I continue?

I was asking myself the very question this morning. I stayed up all night, took a two hour nap between 3:00-5:00am, and then went to study for a midterm. While I was sitting there in the Starbucks, frantically doing my integrations and going over formulas and identities, a lady strolled in with a cart full of her belongings.

She sat down and started a some-what angry conversation with herself. It went along the lines of:

"Six bucks for a sandwich is too much, if you ask me. It's a good sandwich, but 5.50, six bucks is asking for too much. If I had me a good husband, I wouldn't be begging for five bucks here and there. Oh no, if I had me good, sweet husband I wouldn't be here. Now, if you want to give me five bucks, I am not stupid not to take it, but I want me a good husband."

Then she left...

and I, I wanted to cry.

Here I was busy fretting over stupid things like calculus, while this lady was merely trying to survive. Then I thought, I am just like her, I am just trying to survive...is that why I'm putting myself through this nightmare?

Everyone has a story...some people have a really sad story. Some people might look into those mermaid covered windows and think that I was enjoying the luxury of sipping a mocha and becoming more enlightened. However, perhaps they would be surprised that I relate more with that lady than with the stupid numbers in the book...

I don't know what I am doing sometimes; I don't know what I'm doing most of the time...

ahhhh.

i am being consumed by the big beast of calculus!

study break!

I'm taking a break from homework. Blah. :( Here are a couple fun things that have kept me somewhat sane for the past week:



I've been rewarding myself for studying hard or staying awake in class by shopping. WEEEEEE!!! I stopped by Office Depot and found some engineering computation paper. It was only $1. I think the green-tinted paper is great to doodle on. :) Another great discovery I made was at Michael's. They don't have a sale going on right now, but I was fortunate enough to locate some of their clearance items. Surprisingly they have some Martha Stewart pieces at reduced prices!!! I LOVE Martha Stewart stuff! So, I picked up some blank journals; they come in a pack of three and they were only $2/pack. Lastly, the orange cereal bowls you see come in a pack of 4 or 5 for only 50cents at Target.

I end with this little doodle tree, digitally enhanced with Photoshop Adobe (Sadie Lou, that's the program I use, by the way)



(It's a little bit fuzzy...wait, it's really fuzzy (because I took a picture of it rather than scanning it :)), but that's how my brain is right now...)

Well, back to my midnight studying!